Memory of Pain

If living were my legend,

I'd make it forgotten.

Like a ghost town disappeared,

Or a sunflower meadow burned down.

I would lie to my guests,

And tell them its all gone to dust.

Make them feel the pain,

Of something that never really lived.

I hope they would cry, in sorrow or madness,

Feeling the irony of the void, which my sweet heart embraces,

But legends are stories,

Unaware of the validity or truth in their lines,

And a legend is just how it sounds, it is lost,

Forgotten like the leaves of the tree of my soul.

Hellish Eternity of Love

I thought the heaviness of the years was mercury enough to kill,

Inventing stories from the secret garden to cleanse the blood,

Hiding treasures in the vault beset for only the imagination,

Becoming endless and eternal with the red rouge and plumpness,

Winning over the house of the tree of knowledge,

And spreading my wings over its beaten sun,

With songs of restlessness and worry,

Of starched diction and repetitive melancholy,

Floating on the clouds of misery of memory,

And falling deep into the redness of hell’s bounty,

Where my fiery instinct comes alive,

And the promise of my smoking flesh,

Is more than all the reason to live in the eternity,

Of the eternity with you.

Red Rose

I am woman,

Hear me cry in simmered sadness,

I am girl,

Watch me grow into a rose, bright red.

In ways I cannot stand, touch me say to me,

Beautiful beautiful is she,

I know your eyes and mind together,

I see your heart beating hard for me each time.

I wish you loved my thoughts my intellect,

My wit, my  jokes my silent judgement,

I wish I wasn't merely a bright red rose,

But also the dirt, the roots the worms,

Won't you see me far beyond?

Won't you bother to discover the black woe beneath the red?

Girl into woman,

Woman to withered rose.

Unashamed

I wish to know you all the way.

I want your hands right next to mine.

With no guilt no terror no remorse,

I want to feel your love inside my face.

Tickle my senses cold,

Heat the drizzling of this frozen spirit.

Numb away what all is said,

Pick and throw my pains up to that air.

Cry wet tears against my back,

Never let me run reversely.

Keep me intertwined in you for all time,

Walk with me, don't miss a step.

Hide these shamed eyes from the truth,

Guard my solitary existence from the earth.

Pick grains from your heart,

Lay them in mine.

Immerse this loneliness in sweet candy breath,

Absorb me into you.